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Photo Album
04:54
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Flippin through the pictures of me
My life surmised it’s dark and ugly
I just feel like I’m bound for nothing
No trust no love I’m way too bloody
Against a fence
And I’ve been sunken in this couch I guess for weeks or maybe even less
I have nothing left to lose
So they will move and you will stay
The afterlife Seattle rain
It’s getting harder every single day
You’ll make new friends and settle in
Or cry alone like we were kids
It all depends on how your life will end
There’s a devil in my life
And he’s crawling all up my spine
To whisper into my ear so loud and clear
That I haven’t got much time
There’s an angel by my side
With the devil in his sights
But the devil looks on
And sees he’s not that strong
So he crushes him every time
So I’m giving him ammunition
Like a soldier on a mission
Straight to the bottom we go
Yeh and even when I’m back home
It’s like I’m the last one who even wants to hangout anymore
Yeh we all got lives
But they will end
And it’s my life I will amend
But until then Ive got nothing left to loose
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2. |
Fine
02:52
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Been locked away for the summer
But im much stronger now that ive got out
(i think this cage ill sell)
I was feeling like a recluse
Closed in like my gap tooth
When i was pushed down
They said “oh you’ll be just fine”
Don’t tell, me how we’re being way too loud
Cause we’ll never ever ever turn it down
If there’s one thing that I’m good at
It’s to retrace from where I began
I got sass, class and pride
But I won’t cry anymore I’ll meditate right on this floor
And get on pages made for people with my mind
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3. |
Let's Make A Scene
04:03
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Where’s your honesty honestly and do you Even care about my life I know I’m real self-centered sometimes
Where’s your sincerity when you stare at me
Im peeling off impatiently
It shouldn’t be that hard to see
No
Nah nah nah nah nah
And I hate to tell you that I’m okay
It makes me feel like Im part of a cult following
Chanting mantras and sticking to a script
Oh yes fearless leader I am beneath you yeh
I don’t buy that shit
So hey! (HEY!)
I’m not here for salvation
No way!
You only spew misinformation
Hey hey!!
The trust we had is an invasion
Of my mind, my time I wish I could just rewind
Let’s make a scene just you and me
I was never asking for more than
your company a friend by my side
And in this apartment I feel alive
I’m greeted by the tile floor and it’s so cold oh it’s so cold
I don’t really think you wanna work this out
So how bout we drag this on for hours and hours
So I’ll melt into the floor of this apartment for now
Oh for now
And ever it’s sucks
But you act like you’re so damn cool
It makes me hate you but
I just like the company a friend by my side
And in this hard and trying time
It makes two to toe that line
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This sucks
Can I go back to where I messed up
so I don’t have to cut my hair and change the way that I dress
Was it ever to impress to feel blessed or just keep me depressed
Yeh They won I was a soldier with a ray gun
Sent to devastate oh no no no
Everything in my way oh no no no
Talk again, I will never talk again
I won’t say a word until I know what is happening
And if they’re gonna let me win
Will they ever let me win?
Be the same, I will never be the same
I will pack my bags and forever I will leave this place
Unless they let me win
Will they ever let me win?
So
It’s done cut my hair so I won’t recognize my face when I look into the mirror I won’t be complacent
With that poisonous high school mentality oh no no no
I set on a self destructive path completely littered in drugs and self medication
I Started hanging out with friends that only like me half the time
They won’t take me seriously
Cause they’ve seen it before and they know what it means
I’m in the back dressed in black
I’m not making a scene
I’ll disappear into the walls so easily
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5. |
Crushed & Smothered
04:02
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Take a breath
Watch your step
Cause it pays to live
“And then!”
Recollect all these bodies
Trinkets tapes and photos of me
When i was young
I didn’t know how i could live without it
I cant talk right now
My hands are trembling
All i want is time to think about some things
I need the attention of everyone in the room
Show me your most painful memory
Show me what angers you
Ball up your fist show me why you exist
Fight back
Don’t be defined by the cuts on your wrist, go
I was crying at colors on a screen and from the tv i heard her speak to me
I cant talk right now
My hands are trembling
All i want is time to think about some things
Her voice is like no other
Hear her speak it sounds like thunder
Crush my world and make me smothered
Love your friends and call your mother
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6. |
Five Years
04:12
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They underestimated me
I tried to sneak out through the window to feel something
It’s in the park that’s not too far (It’s in my blood it’s in my heart)
I sit and brew behind the liquor store GANG NO MORE!
I’m in my car to try and figure things out
And The music almost drowns what cuts like razors
Even 5 years later
I’m in over my head yes you read me like a book
But there’s no comfort in knowing you’re not understood
And it’s a long way back to my house
But you’re never coming around
Nah
The worlds giving bad vibrations
Looking for the answers in your cremation
You’d think it would hurt no not even a little bit
I’ll put on my thick skin I could never give a shit
This is my eraser to pain for feeling like a doormat
Bleak ass outlook what would you call that
Dead kid makes it I could orchestrate it if you let me
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7. |
Black Skinny Jeans
04:56
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Case closed now you know what i know
And it hurts to say that it’s so
We would have been better as strangers
But we crushed it and watched it explode
Case closed
Case closed closed closed
Just Keep your mouth shut
With your fuckin clean cut
Perfect little hair that you stole from somebody else
Cause without you it’s a clear view
So never ever roll through
And keep all of your bad ideas to yourself
Yes i am the god
That is judging you
And you think you’ve won
But you will never follow through
I’ve spent a whole year waiting
Just to make me always feel abused
And I read the messages that ya sent
Bet you never thought that i’d read them
Goodbye get to leavin
And i feel like we were losing our grip
I couldn’t bare to look into your soulless eyes again
It’s like looking straight at satan
I wanted to
turn off the world
Make it all dark
To make me feel safe but
I was the planet, everburning everchanging now
so
Say what you want
I’m not listening
No need to front
I know everything
Its all i got to keep me sane
Its all i got
I went to my old house to see if it’s the same
I guess they took the trees out but left on the paint
And it’s a weird new world that im livin in and I like it
And I called your number to see if it’s the same
I remember it by heart but I’m glad it didn’t ring
And it’s a weird new world that im livin in and I like it
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8. |
Not That Bad
03:22
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Just think about this for a second now
Don’t be too rash and start moving out
Cause friends are friends and you’ll leave loose ends if you’re too quick
That’s not a threat that’s a joke you see
We all just want you to be happy
So put a smile on cause you’re moving on
to bigger and better things
But don’t you know it’s not that bad
No it’s not that bad
Yeh it’s not that bad unless you’re leaving
Everyone is leaving
Cause it’s the face you make when
People start to crowd in a room
A bed you lay in
Welcomed to the legion of doom
Test your patience
In hopes that you won’t follow through
And I know you x2
It’s not that bad
Though it makes me sad
You can always come back
Instead of leaving
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9. |
19 Stars
05:07
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Let go
Maybe it’ll happen next fall
Sucks to say
And it’s overwhelming so i’ll keep counting the stars up on your the ceiling
Another day
Nah nah nah
Its like the world has turned its back
And i’m wading in the past
So throw me a line
And say that i’m fine
To make me feel better
To make me feel nice
Say we got time and make it alright
Cause i just need one good sign
They shine
Turn off the lights it’s like a night sky
Nice to see
But it’s screaming things instead of calming me
I cant stay
Another day
In a flash yesterday i saw how it ends
In a casket i laid held by men
It looked like a parade
And when they were lowered me in
I was singing
So i’m trying to be present as much as i can
Tell my mother that i love her and ill see her again
i want you to come over so we can make amends
Ill be singing
Nah nah nah
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10. |
I Wrote You This Song
05:36
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Maybe, i was late to the gate, but please
Watch the whole race cause im winning this one
You make me wanna carve hearts so faintly
In trees hands shaking from what’s going on
Madly in love oh I never thought I could be
I never thought I would be till you came along
Madly in love oh we both know we should be
With your heart and my key is where i belong
Oh feels like summer
Oh you’re like no other
Madly in love from my head to my feet
I am tense I am weak
From this beautiful thing
We fit just like a glove oh darling don’t ya think
So please don’t leave
Cause things are not as they seem
And we’ve come a long way from cruisin around in my 92’ Lebaron how long
Till I see your face cause it will always make my heart break
over it I’m over it no I can’t get over it
I’m no good I swear I’m no good
I got addiction to affliction
And I’m constantly wishin
I was there with you
Oh feels like summer
Oh you’re like no other
So when I’m in a casket laying 6 feet down
I pray it’s you that was with me to the ground
My angel, inspiration
That helped me everyday with love
Don’t wait too long
After I’m gone
Cause I wrote you this song
And we’ll all sing along
When I’m back home
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